Being alone.

There's a difference between being alone and being lonely. I had a debate with a friend about this once, and I still think I'm right. There is a difference and life has taught me that I am right. Being alone is a feeling of rejoicing with your own company, being lonely is wanting to be with someone but yourself. It's the inability to face yourself and thus you look to others to distract you, you listen to music, you watch tv, anything but sitting and just being you.

I wonder if we take technology out of society will society go through withdrawal? It'll be an interesting experiment. Because I think technology disconnect us with ourselves and we focus too much on others.

I'm learning that I like being alone so long as I enjoy and feel gratified towards the little things in life, like the ache of a muscle well used, or the joyful turn of words, wet water budding on my skin, the soft feel of a shirt, the feeling of cleanliness, wet hair on a pillow, the velvetness of my body pillow, the caress of blankets, a smile and the strain of muscle, a breath. It's the small things in life that counts--as someone once told me--because they never change.

Someone important to me, someone whom I took their word for everything, but I've been developing my intelligence boundary. Which basically means the ability to be myself without allowing others thoughts or opinions of affect me. Of course that doesn't mean I no longer accept things, I do, after examining it against what I know.

Good night now, it's time for me to be alone---I find I'm enjoying it more than I thought I would.