Self.

So, instead of spending the weekend studying or reading up on self awareness I finally beat a video game. Granted it was Castlevania, Aria of Sorrows, and granted I beat it easily but without the right "powers", but I still beat it! WITHOUT a walkthrough too so! *sniffs pompously* :P heh.

But I am going to go over it again with the right powers of the giant bat, succubus, and flame demon/devil. :D and then I can continue playing. Yay. :D

But instead of chastening myself at this moment for "wasting" that time, I'm just going to be proud of myself. And forgive, because granted that may not be the best way to spend the weekend before finals, but it was fun.

Also, I realize that obsession are unhealthy for me. I think I may have scared my little brother with my incredibly snarly attitude. It makes me quite ashamed to have behaved in that way. And I realize that self awareness isn't going to happen unless I take responsibilities for my actions. Because I certainly didn't do that this weekend. And this is something I have to be forgiving about as well.

Forgiveness used to scare me because if I was forgiven, then I felt that as long as that happened I could just go about doing the wrong thing all the time, if at the end everything was going to be forgiven. But I realize this year how important forgiveness is for love to thrive. Okay, finals time. Wish me luck. :D