Not being with David has allowed me time to think, perhaps love is fleeting. I'm not saying that I no longer love him, the need for him just doesn't burn as much as it used to, and I'm glad because it's certainly burnt it's way through my rational thinking.
A thought came to me today that the way I have behaved is unhealthy, and that when these two weeks are up we're going to have to talk about our boundaries and expectations of each other, and be firm in them. And if we can't be what the other needs, then perhaps it's best not to be. I wonder if this resolution and strength will help me through the actual application of. I hope so, but at the same time, I hope not.
I think it's important to be free. I think we both understand this now, but also I have rights as well. And I need to respect those rights and if he can't then, it's best to be free. Love will come again. It will hurt and may take a while, but it'll come again. Like I said I'll survive. I think I'm holding on because I think he's the only person that can give me what I need, but he's not. Sad, but true.
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